Stressed

So, I'm stressed..STRESSED. I have two tests, a quiz and two papers due this week. I just don't know where/when/how I'll get it done but dammit, I will get it done. I have to. Although I feel better now that I realize that a test and a quiz are both online. Sooo, I can use my textbook for it. I feel better knowing that. But this other test is really making me anxious. It's for a history class. And all these tests we take are essays. Whyyyy? Why me? I don't like writing essays. But it doesn't help when you throw history into the mixing bowl. =( I'll try my best of these exams and quizzes which is all I can do. I'll be busy busy busy studying whenever I can. Wish me luck please! And have a good week.
Goodnight!

Code Blue, Code Blue!

This blog needs CPR stat! Okay so a couple months ago, my blog officially died. :\ I know. I'm a horrible person. Probably why I don't keep plants and pets. I have good intentions, really...I do.

Dear blog of mine,

Just because I didn't post doesn't mean I don't love you, blog. We just went our separate ways. But blog, I'm back to let you know...that I'm here to stay. We will never part again. I won't promise a post a day but at the very least a blog a week. I also won't promise that I'll be interesting cause..well, I'm not interesting at all. You know I have a busy life now...since I'm back in college and all. In case you think otherwise, yes blog, you will play second fiddle to college. I'm sorry. I know it's not the way you'd prefer. But maybe someday, I can devote all the attention you deserve to you. And lastly, I will always love you so don't think otherwise.

Love always,
~ Jess

400 miles of junk and Ray LaMontagne

Today is the 400 mile Yard Sale. Yes. Its annual. Every first weekend of June. :| 4-0-0 miles..of yard..sales. Of other people's junk. That they no longer want anymore. God knows how many people have pawed through it. How many dirty grubby hands have touched this vase..or this knickknack. Just grosses me out. I think too much about it. Not like I could go yard sellin' anyhow. I have no money. And no signs of getting more money. Anyways, I'm really tired tonight even though I had a decent amount of sleep. I discovered this artist though tonight. Ray LaMontagne. Check him out. He has an AMAZING voice. Just by looking at him you wouldn't guess such a strong, potent voice would come from him.



I think I'll just leave you with that voice ringing in your ear. Nothing more to say after that video.

Caffeine and chocolate cookies

So, thats basically what I'm running on right now. Chocolate cookies and caffeine. As sad as it sounds. I couldn't sleep for the life of me last night. I laid down around 1am but it was after 4:30AM before I went to sleep. Then, bless her heart, my mother woke me up at 8:30..and yeah. Thats when my day began. After 4 hours of sleep. :| I also have another problem. I'm lonely as hell right now. I mean, I really know there's people to talk to..but I want someone NEW to talk to. All my friends have gotten boring. Apologies to whoever may be reading this but its true. Okay so I have ANOTHER problem...you're probably saying to yourself "Could this girl be anymore screwed up?".... and the answer to that is..yes, yes I can. This just a drop in the bucket. But anyways, third problem is with my sister. I love her. She's my best friend. She's my only sister and I'm always there for her and I want her to be happy but dammit, she has the most serious relationship than she's ever had. And its just irritating me because she's devoting all of her time to her new boyfriend..and none to me. Or our family really to be perfectly honest. Granted I've never had a relationship like her's and Andrew's..so, I don't really know how it feels but if she's not changing her status on Facebook about him, she's texting him..if she's not texting him..she's talking on the phone with him. And if she's not doing any of those..he's physically with her. I haven't hung out with my sister in many many moons and it makes me feel lonely. She's basically the only friend I have near me and my hometown so I just don't know what to do with myself. My town is too small to hang out in. We have a Super Wal-Mart, a McDonald's and a movie theater. We all have to go OUT OF THE COUNTY to find anything remotely fun to do. Hell, we don't even have a mall in my town. And all my friends from college don't live anywhere remotely close to me. Sooo, I'm at a loss. With everything. Can't find a job. Can't find friends. Can't find a boyfriend of my own. I have a grand total of 20.56 cents in the bank account. Don't hit me up for money. I willrefuse you. :|

Poster child for a dysfunctional blog

I'm sorry. Sincerely apologize for not posting in a bajillion weeks. :( Okay, so I haven't posted since last year. And that depresses me. I mean, why haven't I? I haven't been too busy. I can lie and say I was but who am I kidding? I have no life, thus I'm never busy. So I've been out of school since May 15th. What have I accomplished yet? Big..fat..nothing. Really, I haven't done shit. Have I started my exercise program? No. Have I found (at the very least) a part-time job? No. Have I put in applications to find said jobs? YES. I've done something at least. I need to take a lot of the movies coming out this year and make a list of the ones I want to see and cross them off when I see them. And my rating. Maybe I'll do a movie review of them here. Hm, sounds interesting. And maybe music reviews but I hardly buy CDs. I'm just not interested in wasting $20 bucks on a CD that I won't like except for the one song. Okay enough ranting about that. Whats going on in my life? Not shit. But I'm trying to change that. I'm going to get my license soon so I won't be desserted here at home with nothing to do all the time. Not that I can pay for the insurance and gas for Betsy. Oh, Betsy is the '95 Buick Regal. Burgandy. With a few rust spots here and there. She may not be a spring chicken but she runs like a fucking champ. Be jealous of my mom car.
I've also become obsessed with this song. You may recognize from a certain Tim Burton film...BEETLEJUICE ring any bells? Hell..yes.

Harry Belafonte can sing me to sleep any night. :) By the way, if anyone is interested, Harry Belafonte sings this song and the song title is "Jump In The Line". Get if you don't have it.